Fancy word, huh?
It means "age-related hearing loss." I have it. I listened to country music and musical theater so loudly in my walkman (remember those) in New York so loud that I gave myself tinnitus. That fancy word means I have a constant ringing in my ears. This is really only a problem when I'm looking for silence, which is a good amount of time.
I'm currently listening to a programmed Pandora channel based on Audra MacDonald, so it's heavy on musical theater and specifically musical theater women. It's a little dramatic, but I can only hear the ringing during the pianissimo parts. I've gotten pretty good at ignoring.
What I'm not as good at ignoring is difficulty breathing, which I am having at this moment. I like to ignore that I have bad allergies and mild asthma. I've had them both since I was a kid. The asthma used to be worse, but it's reared it's head again here in LA. I like to pretend I'm not asthmatic, but that's at my own risk. This seems to be a coldish kind of thing that settled in my chest. I'd prefer not to take another antibiotic, so I'm hoping to muscle my way through it.
I have some belief that I will find the right combination of sugar and wheat-free living with appropriate exercise that will magically cure me of being an allergic asthmatic with tinnitus. An ear-ringing, wheezing man in his 40s. I guess the possibility of that happening are slim.
I've never been great at acceptance. Tonight's a night I have to accept it. But knowing me, I'll wake up tomorrow to dream again.